I Know the above sounds terrible, but unfortunately thats the way it is for some people.
I hear people say "There were a lot more people that were going to take amrit today, but they say that this jathas rules are too strict and they will wait for another jatha and take it from them".
Shocking really, that we have come to a state where we 'take' amrit on our conditions, not Guru jis! I mean after all who is guru ji, he doesnt understand how it is to live in this 'modern' age!
Its shows that we have no trust or faith in Gurujis words and hukam. People like me continue to question his authority. Then we ask why are we in this sorry state. The answers simple, we are not with our Guru ji.
Our Guruji is beyond time and beyond this so called modern western world. He is the knower of all hearts. He knows our worries and our thoughts, but have we ever let him take care of it? No! We think we can live our life in a way that we can control everything, but just once, why dont you lay everything at his feet and then see how you walk through this life with ease.
If we become his, do you think he will ever let us down? No, because only a human can let people down, our Guruji is God, so whats to worry?
If you have love in your heart for Guruji, go to him (panj pyare) with the thought that Guruji, im not worthy, my life is lifeless, I have come to your feet to beg for your amrit, all I can give is this empty head (which I think is full of wisdom). If thats the attitude you come with then Guruji will wake you up for amrit vela, Guruji will jap naam for you, Guruji will look after you kakaars. Thats what a father does, how great is he, that we dont know, but sometimes I think we dont deserve his mercy and compassion.
The path is not easy because we think that I cant do it, well we cant do anything, let Guruji do it and live by his hukam and his will and lets live life by his rules, if you see it as a chore, then it becomes like work, now none of us really like going to work do we?! But if you see it as love, communication with Guruji and that one desire, to have darshan of the Masters feet, then it becomes an addiction.